I had a birthday the other day, the 21st of July. I am probably the biggest birthday fan of anyone I know. I love my birthday, it's my favourite day of the year by far. I never work on my birthday, it's a rule, and I always do something nice for myself, usually at a spa. I eat whatever I want, and I make all my friends do what I want to do. (It's true!) So this year, I had a massage, skipped class (although I did have to finish writing a paper), and went out for dinner at a swanky restaurant where the wait staff present your meals as if they were synchronized swimmers. I had a wonderful time, and thanks to everyone who came out (and especially those who paid for my dinner :)!I never feel any older really. I did have a hard time with 25, I felt as though I was never going to have all the things I thought I "should" have by that age…. a husband, a house, a good career, a dog, etc. I was kind of depressed about it for a while, and then I got over it. (I didn't really want some of those things after all.) I also felt that 25 was kind of old. It was my first feeling that I should try to be more grown up, because my early twenties were gone – the time when it is socially acceptable to be a dunce.
Now, I feel as though I'm getting younger all the time – silliness abounds in my life, particularly when I am with my two best girls, M and A!!! being around them keeps me feeling young. I think for a long time when I was younger, I felt I should be responsible, and so I was, mostly. Now, I just feel like I'm only responsible for myself, and that includes making sure I have as much fun as possible! Fun is a priority!!!
My horoscope tells me that this year is going to be a really great one, that the pressures and difficulties of the past several years (as a result of Jupiter or Saturn in my 3rd house or something) are going to be gone, and I will have a much easier and enjoyable time of things. It's kind of true, the past few years were difficult. But they were also productive, educational, character-building, and pretty happy a lot of the time. I've done a lot of stuff, learned a lot of lessons, and I'm so much more MYSELF than I have ever been. I feel like I'm on the right path, that I cannot falter. I feel like I am learning so much all the time, and I am more aware of things around me. I feel like I know exactly who I am, and I can integrate all the facets of myself in any situation and maintain my own identity all the time. And, I know that as long as I have my best friends around me, I am safe, loved, and I can do anything. What a great feeling!
So, hello 29! I can't wait to see what's in store!