well, after an intensive three weeks, my course in feminism has come to a close. I wrote my final exam today, and I think I did just fine. I always worry slightly about essay questions, because I'm not sure if I'm expressing myself well enough, and sometimes I just am most concerned about getting the points across rather than speaking with style, and of course that is a worry for my perfectionist heart. I'll find out my marks in the next couple of weeks, so until then, I'm going to enjoy my "summer of freedom"!
My thirst for knowledge has just been reawakened. The best thing about philosophy, for me, is learning how to think in ways that are not natural for me, to look at subjects from the perspective of another. The discovery that brings me is so rewarding; I find myself more and more humbled by the possibility that I am not thinking about something in the right way, that my instincts are exclusionary. I have always been fairly good at seeing other perspectives, but I have also been very quick to judge, quick to jump to conclusions based on my own viewpoints and experiences. I am opening more and more to the ideas of others, to reserving judgement until I have considered all the options, and maybe not even taking a side at all.
The other reason I love philosophy so much is that it shows me how interconnected everything really is. I love being able to see how religion and psychology meet, how religion and politics meet, how religion and science meet, where metaphysics plays a role in politics, and how physics and metaphysics intersect. I love how the more I learn about one thing, the more I need to know about something else; in learning about philosophy, I also want to know more about history and biology, and psychology and religion. I need to know more about how people are and how they have been, ad how they have been affected by their surroundings, and how they have formed the customs they have formed. It's all so fascinating to me, I feel like I could just spend countless years in school learning about all of these things. It makes me want to know more.
I wonder where it will all lead, and how my thoughts will change and develop along the way. I wonder what kind of person I will be on the other end, when I am finished. But then, I don't think I will ever be finished! The natural curiosity I have awakened is never going to be satiated; learning is a life-long pursuit for me, and I am so thankful for it. I think I will always want to know more, and that is encouraging and comforting for me. Hopefully it will help to keep my feet on the ground, instead of my head in the clouds!